Today's stress

Gosh...nothing like waking up to thinking about everything that is going on and having anxiety about it all. First of all, I'm truly hurt that the napro dr did not call me back with my p+7 and TSH (Thyroid) blood test results. I had the blood draw done last Tuesday, Feb 17th. I left a message on the 18th with the nurse in the office to have the dr call me with the results. I'm not going to take any more prog suppositories w/o knowing if they are working or not! I left another msg yesterday while I was at the office requesting med records to be sent to the new IF spec. Still no call back. I'm hurt. This dr just has slapped us with another "I don't care" answer. That is what it feels like. My DH is over this dr. I'm hurt. How can this napro dr think I'll send other patients to him? I'm glad he's helped others but he just seems like he doesn't care about me or my dh. He's blown us off. Thank God I can go elsewhere. This feeling of abandonment by a dr is not a good feeling. I guess I'll have to find another dr to help me maintain my thyroid med too. Gosh.....using napro did not turn out the way I thought it would have. I'm suppose to see the practitioner next Tues but my husband thinks I should drop the appt. I guess I just want some reassurance I'm still on the right track with the charting. I want to keep charting.
The napro dr is my biggest source of stress and the other is my schooling. I have two major projects due this semester. One is due next Thurs and the other is due at the end of April. I have so much work to do and with trying to sub and dealing with IF....I just feel anxious. Thinking about it all is crazy. I'll get it done....somehow. I know my dh is sick of IF thanks to the napro dr....so hopefully, when I see the new IF spec....we can move on. I also have a strong feeling getting the med records sent over is going to be a challange too. Girls...I just know in my heart we are near the end of this journey. I just don't know how much we can keep doing. Six years is a long time. We've tried adopting. Today it feels hard to accept God's will for us. Maybe I just need to refocus and start thinking about our lives without children. That is exactly what my DH is doing. This is sooooooo hard.
Oh our friend called who is adopting that baby to tell me that someone sat in front of him at his church last week and this young family complained about how the church my dh and I attend does not have a cry room for children. Our friend told me to talk to our priest about this because our church is losing young families. First of all, our priest knows my dh and I are struggling to have a baby ourselves so commenting on a cry room would make him wonder don't you think? I basically told this friend that I have too many other issues to think about than a cry room at our church. LOL. He's a parent now so I guess we are no longer on the same page. LOL. Then he talked about how his wife is getting checked out again so they can try to have their own baby too. I've been trying to listen but it's tough. They have a baby!!!!! I know they'll have their own too. I don't want to be part of that. Putting on that happy face when all I feel is sad. Good for them. It's almost like he wants us to live vicariously through their joy and happiness. He complained a lot the other day. I guess today is my emotional day. I have to leave early for class to work on one of my projects...hopefully, that will take my mind off of my feelings. I'm going to pray the rosary. I need something. God bless.