Before I go into my dr appt with a new G.P (whose Catholic) last Thurs..I want to say that since the lovely meds especially a said h.cg shot, I've had a good cry everyday. On Sunday at mass I almost had a good bawl during the procession when we began to sing "Servant Song" which I posted on my side bar for you all to listen too and the person who put the song on yo.utub.e also posted the lyrics which last Sunday ....touched me deeply. When we sang the first verse "What do you want of me Lord? Where do you want me to serve you? Where can I sing your praises? I am your song.."...I was beside myself. I guess there are certain questions that I can ask our good Lord..like..what do you want of me Lord? hmmm...not "why me?" or "why can't I have a baby?"...so I guess I'm going to focus more on how I can serve the Lord. For some it is in parenting...for some...it's something else...maybe for me it's just being a good teacher. I was hoping I could do both....God may have other plans. hmmmm.....
Back to Thurs...I met the nicest dr I've had so far. She is a general prac.tioner and she took her time to talk to me and find out why I was there and how she could help me. First of all, she felt around my gallbladder area to see if I had pain and since I didn't and really don't have pain with it...she said for now...I just need to watch what I eat and I can take a Pep.cid AC at night before bed to help with some of my stomach issues. So far, that is working out good. She also informed me that I can take Al.eve even when pregnant up to the third tri-mester. I get migraine.s and she told me to stay on the A.leve since I'm TTC and if she gave me a prescription for something else...I'd have to stop once I found out I was prego. That took away one of my many worries...for six years I've wondered if Al.eve is bad while TTC. Nothing else helps....so I'm thankful for that. We also talked about my hypothyroid and since dr napro sent everything in my records but the blood work.up from last summer...she could not determine why he had me on the T3. So she's going to run some more blood work and see if I still need the meds and if I do...she told me to have the pharm in NE fax her the prescription and she'll renew it for me....so no more Dr. Napro. As you all know...he just gave me the thyroid meds and progesterone but didn't look to see if I had other issues going on which we all know I did! So...I can now move on. This new dr talked to me about all the meds I'm taking now how even the pep.cid can help with those as well (some meds bother my stomach too). I have a follow up with her in a few weeks. I feel taken care of now and I know when I need her services in the future...I will be taken care of then. I feel blessed.
In cycle news nothing to report. I've been taking a progesterone suppository every AM and so far so good unlike the others I've tried. I had cramping last night which worried me for it was way to early for that! I thought if I get my cycle now...it's too soon...now what? But it didn't come and today so far no cramps. I'm definitely moodier and my boobs are tender. My dh and I have had a few spats...I try to control myself but since we are home a lot together this summer...I can't always stop it. He is a sensitive man too...so this is not easy. We love each other and are strong so it blows over quickly. I haven't been eating very good (craving junk) and I haven't gone for any walks so now I feel bloated and Fat. ugh....did I mention I nap every afternoon too. I know it's the meds side effects...I read them on the info packets they come with. I have a blood test next Monday for pregnancy (this is just part of the schedule the dr gave me) but now I'm wondering if AF will come before than. Next Tuesday...dh and I are going away for a little trip...I think after all of this...we need a break.
If you are wondering...our cat is fine. He had a few days of limping but he healed rather nice and is back to the boy we've grown to love. If you get the chance...listen to the Servant Song. I hope it touches you the way it has touched me. We are blessed for we have the Lord in our lives...I guess the question now is "What do you want of me Lord?" God Bless.
BTW...I set up an email address to go with this blog. If you ever want to email me now you can. It's in my profile. :)
What a beautiful revelation about the song. I have to tell you that as I was reading about you crying during the procession, it made me feel NORMAL! I have read other's who struggle to keep the tears at bay while at church and it feels affirming to know that I am not the only one who can't seem to dry the tears in Mass.
ReplyDeleteI am glad your cat is better and that you and DH get to take a little trip! I am also so happy you found a doctor who treats you well and listens to you. It is so different than having someone who rushes you and cares little about you as a human being. There is so many great things happening in your life! Celebrate everyday!
I cry at church sometimes, too. I try not to, and I think it embarasses Mr. A at little bit, but sometimes the words/songs/events are just too much! I'm glad your cat is doing better and that you like your doctor. I'm praying that the bloodwork reveals a big blessing from God!
ReplyDeletea trip sounds like so much fun!!
ReplyDeleteyou know, i was never much of a cryer until i started all these hormones and now i'm wondering who i am! i can feel myself almost getting there at church sometimes too.
when did you start your progesterone? my # was low the last time it was drawn and i was talking to the on call dr about it ... he says i need to tell my dr i want to add it, that it sounded low enough to add... i figure what is one more hormone at this point. btw... i'm having to take this month off - all the injections and suped up hormone gave me 3-4 cysts on each ovary. yay. but, i can't say i'm missing the stress of ttc this cycle.
hoping this cycle is the one for you and good news comes with the bloodwork!
I love that song, but it also makes me cry! Sometimes it's just too much to handle during Mass when all those questions become so real. Sending prayers your way!
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