Early May

Looks like my surgery is going to have to wait until early May. Today is CD1 (can you believe my last cycle made it to P16? I did have 3 days of red spotting) so I had to call the nurse to start scheduling the surgery and blood work(this dr believes the first day of the cycle is the first day of flow not spotting this may confuse my charts). Apparently, the dr I met with is booked during the "right" time and the other dr/surgeon is going to be out of town so we decided to plan something for early May. This will actually work out great....if it's the Lord's will. The surgery may happen the week after one class is done and the week before another one begins. I'm going to be taking a 5 week comprehensive summer course that begins May 11th. I'll be so busy but it's nice to get a course done in that amount of time. I actually have to drive two hours to another off campus sight which stinks but I will do it. Ugh!!! So, Lord willing the surgery will happen May 4th or 5th and that will give me a good week to recover before I start the new class and all of that travelling. My friend who has is going through the cancer treatments lives about 1/2 hour away from that off sight campus...so I may take the opportunity to visit with her while I'm out that way. In a way, I'm glad I have a month to prepare myself for that surgery and my DH has a month to request a sub for his class and get plans prepared. I am going to have the blood work done this Sunday. I can at least do that now.
Besides that....my dh and I met up with our friends who are adopting that baby ( I've blogged about these friends before) for a fish fry at another church this evening. I really don't talk to them as much since they got that baby. He's a cutey and perfect for them. He actually looks like the adoptive mother...it's weird how that happens. During dinner, I wondered about a baby for us and God's plan. I asked "Am I missing out on something?" I know I am but there's such a big part of me that feels like it's out of my control. I felt strong and not jealous or anything like that. I just silently prayed that one day my dh and I will know parenthood. I like seeing these friends for they are good people and they deserve that baby and all the happiness this child is bringing to them. They do seem happy. We are happy too. My dh admitted that he felt somewhat sad that we are not parents. I truly have given this to God and can only do what I can do. I pray the surgery and ovulation drugs give us a chance but I'm not as excited or hopeful like years before. I guess I'm cautiously optimistic. hmmmmm.......I'll just keep praying. I'm going to pray the rosary now in thanksgiving. I have a wonderful and blessed marriage. I'm thankful for that and many other blessings I have in my life. Once a week....I like to pray in thanks and ask for nothing. God Bless.