Another "situation"

I really don't have much to discuss at this point. Last Sat, I got a call from a friend about a young woman who is going to have a baby in a few months and she's looking to place the baby for adoption. I talked to my friend to find out that this young woman was going to my agency...which I found exciting...until I called my s.w. and she knew nothing of this situation. I found out today that the young mother was going to a different agency. My friend is going to make some phone calls and find out if this young mother will switch...which is probably unlikely. I explained to my friend that we couldn't switch due to having to do another home.study, more paperwork and never mind the extra expense. I did let her know that our agency is very b/m friendly..they offer excellent counseling services and will make sure this is the right decision for her...which is what my dh and I want in any adoption situation....we want to make sure the b/m has made the right decision. I'm not too upset...I put this in the Lord's hands...and just knew that if we were meant to parent this baby...it would happen. There's no more questioning God and his lovely plan for my dh and I. As hard as it is...I just pray for strength and I work on doing His will.

Please know that I thanked my friend profusely for thinking about us..wasn't that just so sweet??? Don't get me wrong...I am so thankful for these calls...I just pray one day one of these "situations" turns into a real adoption situation. I can only hope and pray and trust...and..find strength.

We could offer priva.te adopti.on too...but my dh is not comfortable with that route right now. So, we'll see what and if anything else happens. I'll keep you posted.

Besides that...the s.w. came to our house today for the bi-yearly check. We discussed other programs the agency offers like fos.ter care and specia.l nee.ds adoption. Neither are totally appealing to me right now....I just don't know if I can handle giving a child back...I know that it's best for the children to go back to their families in most cases...but what about my feelings? I just don't know...so I'll pray for some discernment in that area.

The spec need.s program is different...it doesn't necessarily mean the child has a phy.sical or men.tal disability but there is most likely behav.ior issues, etc and with all the studying I've done...some behav.ior "issues" are disabilit.ies! I knew my educational background would come in handy...the s.w discussed the "issues" which I am aware and I am also very aware what it would mean if we took a child into our home with these "issues". So, with that I guess my dh and I would be making our best informed decisions IF we went that route. I'm not feeling a pull towards any of this right now...I just know in my heart I want a healthy infant...one child to call my own and love. Like I said earlier...I will pray for discernment and the Lord will lead me (us) to do what is right.

I got to meet my future students the other day! I'm still not sure about all of this. They were very well behaved compared to the class I just worked with. They are 5th graders so they know how to work independently...how to be polite...how to do a lot more than I expected. Sure, some will test me..that goes without saying but I think behavior probs will be minimal. Whew...now don't get me started on the curriculum...I won't go there. Geesh.

Lastly...lots of congrats going out to all the new mommies in this blogosphere..esp Amazing Life...she's been through so much...she is just beaming with her new baby. God bless all of these new mommies, the babies, the dh's and the rest of their families that were waiting for the blessing to arrive! Lots of other bloggers are expecting now too...God is just pouring down the miracles. Next year will be just as exciting...who will be next???? We just have to keep reading and praying.....God Bless.