our expectant mother is changing her mind and is going to parent her child. ++sigh++. We are not 100% sure but she quit responding to my texts about three weeks ago and I quit texting her so we have not communicated with each other. I certainly don't want to keep texting her if she is moving on. Right? I've talked to our agency and they said it is not uncommon for birth.mothers to disappear and reappear soon before the birth or at the time of birth. She hasn't been responding to the agency either when they try to reach out to her as well. I know this expectant mom had a lot going on. We (my dh and I) even set up for her to talk with a social worker in her state so that she could get the help she needed to figure things out. She never responded to the social workers calls and she told me that she wanted the help! I did my best. I really did.
You know how you just get a feeling???? Well, that is what is going on with me. I've never felt secure on this whole journey and now I'm secure in knowing she's not going to place her child. Last month we went from texting a lot to now...nothing. I don't know what is going on with her. I have to quit trying to figure her out. I can't. I also worry about the baby and how that young mother is going to manage everything.
The other day I asked God "So, why did you place this young mother in our lives?" I know she needs prayers. Is that why? Was that the sole reason so we could pray for her for her greater good? I know when we pray for a sick person, it is for their greater good. But placing an expectant mother in our lives in hope she will place her baby with us is something different...right? Would He do that to give me hope and then have that hope dashed? I know I should never ask God questions but isn't it human nature to ask "Why?"
It's ironic but I keep feeling God wants to me to keep praying for this young woman. I will keep doing that because He wants me to....but keeping her in my prayers is not helping me to really move on.
And the agency reminds me that we are not 100% sure what she will do until she has the baby. I guess we'll know next month.
I also remind myself daily...It's God's will...not mine.
St. Anne ...pray for us.
St. Collette...pray for us..
St. Michael....pray for us.
I'll be praying for you and the expectant mother too.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry that this is so hard and so complicated. You all are in my prayers!
ReplyDeleteI love that word "complicated" I think that word says it all in a nutshell. so complicated.
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ReplyDeleteIm asking God why right along with and for you!!!!! Hugs. So sorry. :(
ReplyDeleteIt is so hard not to ask "Why?" Thank you for your sweet words.
DeleteI am sorry J. Praying for you and for the birth mom. Our Lady of Perpetual Help, pray for everyone involved!
ReplyDeleteSo sorry your heart is hurting and waiting to know more. I will keep you in my prayers, as well as the expectant mom and baby. Is there a possibility that she no longer has cell phone coverage? I just imagine that she may be living without a lot of money and maybe the cell phone got cut off. Who knows, but I really to hate to see you and your husband going through this constant wondering.
ReplyDeleteWe have thought about her cell phone. She does have a hard time paying her bills. We wouldn't mind helping her but doing so gets complicated. We'd have to hire a lawyer.
DeleteI wasn't trying to suggest you pay her cell phone bill, just was hoping that may be why you have not heard from her. I really cannot imagine how hard this is for you. You seem to have lots of grace filling in the gaps for you! Prayers, as always!
DeleteOh, I knew you weren't suggesting we pay her bills.....it's hard not to be able to help her though. But yes, she probably loses contact when she hasn't paid her bill. I
DeleteWhat a tough situation! You are so right, why? And then there is the part about trying to guard your heart, but not knowing what is going on. I have no idea, either, but I will pray for you, for this mother and especially for the sweet baby!
ReplyDeletePraying for all involved!
ReplyDeletePraying for all of you!
ReplyDeleteI wanted to let you know that I am thinking of you a lot this month and offering extra prayers. God's plan is so mysterious. May He bring you comfort and peace in whatever lies ahead.
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