The young birthmother ultimately decided to parent her child. The journey is over and not with a happy ending for me (us). We were not surprised she chose to parent. NOT at all. I just wish I didn't spend the last six months wondering and hoping. I did what God wanted and I prayed for her and the baby. I do hope all is well with them. I am a little upset with the agency and how they handled this situation but I will just have to get over it.
So now I am moving on and looking forward. Like I told a dear friend of mine the other day...It's God's will NOT MINE. For some reason, that baby was not meant to be my baby. I can only hope and pray He has something better planned.
We have now endured the adoption term of a "failed match". Most couples we have talked to said they endured at least one before adopting the baby that was meant to be theirs.
I just hope and pray...He has something better planned.
With that...I continue waiting......and waiting.....
I'm so sorry. It's still so hard even if you did expect what was going to happen,
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry. It's tough getting your hopes up and trying to get ready for the baby and then for it not to happen :( Prayers as you wait.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry! Even it this child wasn't meant to be yours and you had a feeling she would parent, it is still wickedly hard. Prayers for you and your hubby!
ReplyDeleteYeah, a lot harder than I ever thought. I am moving on more and more each day. I have been working really hard at looking forward. Thank you for the prayers!
DeleteI am so sorry. I remember vividly our first failed match....even though it was more than 7 years ago. It was and intense and deep suffering and I so wish it wouldn't have happened to you. Know of my prayers for your future...may it be bright and beautiful!
ReplyDeleteI wouldn't wish this situation on anyone else either....thank you for the prayers.
DeleteMy prayers are with you.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sprry. Praying for you.
ReplyDelete*sorry
DeleteHI PJ,
ReplyDeleteEven though I don't comment often, I've been following your adoption journey for some time now, and I have been impressed from the very beginning by your grace and compassion to the young expectant mother. You have loved and supported her without any expectation that she would give you anything in return. You have protected your heart while giving of yourself.
Give yourself time to grieve and know that my prayers are with you. I'm not sure if it's any consolation, but your ability to love so unconditionally will make you a great mother when the baby and birth family that is meant for you and your family comes into your lives.
Sarah
Thank you so much for the kind words. I probably could have done a better job at protecting my heart though. LOL. I have been working on moving on and forward.
DeleteI'm so sorry!
ReplyDeleteRan across you blog...I'm so sorry to hear this, but love your attitude.
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