Taking my mind off of waiting.

I'll be honest...waiting for some kind of news on the adoption front is just plain tough.  We have not heard anything since that one little "nibble" last month.  Ugh.  We know expectant moms are looking at our profile but so far, no interest.  I am trying hard to remain positive....but since the rest of my IF journey resulted in zero babies...I guess I'm finding it hard believing this newest adoption journey is going to end with the results of my prayers, dreams and hearts desires...just being honest.  I completely trust in God's will for us...I do!  I guess it's hard to "like" it.  Again, being honest.

So, while I continue to wait...I decided to join a gym!  Me? What?  Whoa....I haven't joined a gym since my 20's and I failed miserably at going after I paid a full years membership fees.  This place I am paying month by month...it is cheaper to do the whole year but since I don't have a good track record and I haven't worked out in a gym in AGES...I wasn't going to risk the money.  They have two indoor pools, one is a warm water pool so after yoga I'm hoping to swim and relax some more...did I mention Yoga!

Yoga...love it....love it...love it....new gym gives me yoga fix.  Today the yoga instructor commented on how good I am doing at the poses.  My body thrives for this....I do try to do it at home but fail at that...gym membership keeps me in yoga. 

This new gym did a fitness assessment on me too.  They didn't say anything I already didn't know but I can say I didn't like hearing it from a very fit, young lady.  Ugh.  Aging has not been good to my middle half.   My upper body strength rocks...totally...however my lower body (legs) needs help.  I did get some good nutrition information and  when I went home..I started to check the labels.  The lowfat bread I've been eating lately is actually not that good for me.  Dang.  Once again I heard it's best to eliminate animal products.  I'm working on it.  In six months, they will do another assessment to see my improvements.  In a way, that is motivating.

How could I forget?  Since my last dr's visit in April...today's weigh in showed that I lost 5 lbs....doing the happy dance over here!  It's got to be that yoga and cardio class I've been trying to fit in to my schedule.  It's funny but it's actually hard to find the time to work out more.  I can handle yoga twice a week but giving up my free day on Friday for ME is something that is tough.  I like sleeping in and being lazy...now I get up like I do every other morning and I go do cardio dance.  I'm also going to try to get another yoga session in and Fridays but the old lazy self is asking about couch time.  It's an inner battle ladies...I'm really working hard at getting back into shape.

Besides the gym, I've just been keeping up at my job.  I got my first real bite the other day.  The little guy has some sensory needs and biting is just one way he's fulfilling those needs.  We are working on that.  I did have a jacket on so his mouth did not touch me but I did have a bite mark. 
 
So I do have something else to focus on.  ME!  If I'm going to focus on anything else besides adoption non-happenings...I might as well make it about me, huh?  I feel good about the gym.  It's giving me that extra something I need to keep living and put adoption in God's hands.  My health is important especially if I'm going to be a mom someday (Lord Willing).

My brother and his boys will be visiting soon, there are graduation parties to attend, and Father's day is coming up...we are also going to a major league baseball game...so there's lots to keep me busy. 

Today, I just want to say a prayer of thanks for my abundant blessings and for the Lord in helping me to find ways to wait with grace. 

St. Anne..pray for us!
St. Collette, pray for us!
St.Michael, pray for us!