Quick Check In...The Risks.

Well, we got all of the paperwork signed to refinance our home to help pay for our future adoption.  It's a hard pill to swallow but if we want to adopt...we had to get the money from somewhere.  We all know having children is a sacrifice...for us...the sacrificing starts now.  It's totally worth it.  We don't regret having to do that.  My job is a slow paying job...I can't depend on a paycheck every other week.   This state is in the red big time...so when there's money to pay...I'll get paid.  Stinks...but we knew going into this job this would happen.  I can't praise God enough for my dh's job and that we are able to manage.  Thank God he got a second job as well.

Also, my dh and I called the references that the adoption agency had given to us.  The responses were many and most had said the same thing...most had failed adoptions...meaning b/m changed her mind after the birth.  So we've learned there's a HUGE emotional risk doing adoption besides the expense.  There is nothing anyone can do to prevent this either.  I know I will be heartbroken if that happens to my dh and I.  I know some of you who have adopted went through this heartbreak.  I feel like I've been through 10 years of heartbreak...and now I'm walking into a more?  Whew...Lord, help me!

I need to figure out how I'm going to fly to get our child too.  I get motion sickness...bad.  I'll talk to my dr.  I like to plan my trips.  We might not have much time to plan.  This makes me so nervous.  Buying an airplane ticket on whim is not going to be cheap either.  Plus, if the state papers don't get signed right away..we might have to stay in a state so we need to plan quite a bit for travel and possible living expenses.  I know that has happened to some of you who have done interstate adoptions.

There are so many unknowns....however.......

I will say...the adoptive families stated adoption is a roller coaster ride...but once they held their forever child...it was all worth it.  We will just have to remember that and one saying my mother always told me when I was growing up was;
"Good things come to those who wait."  ...Indeed...we will be waiting. We've been waiting 10 years...what's a few more years?  Hopefully, if it's the Lord's will...our wait for adoption won't be long.

St. Anne...pray for us!