Well, last weekend, I went to confession and you know how it goes...father forgive me...I have something that has been weighing big on my heart...actually a few things...and blah....I told the priest it all.
I have been having so much anxiety over this new adoption journey. So many unknowns...and some anger because haven't I been through enough? Alas, he did calm my anxious heart...he reminded me...to give thanks to God for giving me the strength to pursue adoption (again) and to thank Him now for the child we will be adopting. The priest reminded me that I am strong...because I am moving on...I am going to give this another try to grow our family one more time (after this...what else is there?). The priest also reminded me that I will be saving a soul...this child will be raised in a Catholic home...where only the truth will be told. Wow. I never thought about it like that. Whatever obstacles we will be facing on this new journey...God will get us through it all...for He has a bigger plan...and if it includes adoption...it will happen. I can rest. He won't give me (us) anything we can't handle. God knows me best.
So far, everything is falling into place.
The priest told me to pray this simple prayer that St. Faustina prayed during uncertain times...Mary, lead me, guide me.
I love when confession not only absolves me from my sins but gives me spiritual E.R....to keep my eyes on the Lord and live my life in peace. Thank you Jesus!!!
I can already tell that this time...it's different. I'm in a different place. I just have a good feeling...it's going to happen. My dh and I will be parents. Next week we sign the contract and pay our first payment. Next week...it will all begin. And as we wait...we'll prepare..perfect for Advent huh?
I have a good friend who is so excited that my husband and I are pursuing adoption. She always says, "You're going to be awesome parents to a baby who would otherwise not have a good home." I always thank her, but in the back of my head I think about how many families are out there waiting to adopt and I can't help but think that a future baby that we will adopt could have just as good a life with another family waiting too. So when you wrote what your priest said - "The priest also reminded me that I will be saving a soul...this child will be raised in a Catholic home...where only the truth will be told." - this put a new perspective on it for me. Thank you for helping me to feel like our family has something more special to offer than your average adopting family. Continued prayers for you, your husband, and your future child(ren)!
ReplyDeleteI agree...the words "Catholic soul" told me everything I needed to hear....so true indeed. Whether our b/m's realize it or not..we do have something very special to offer!
DeleteI love this post and the hope spilling everywhere from it! Praying for you this Advent!!
ReplyDeleteThank you CM...still can't believe it's almost Advent time again!
Delete"Spiritual ER" - love it!
ReplyDeleteSo glad you found some peace, I'll be praying that you are able to rest in it throughout this journey of adoption.
Thank you...I just gotta try not to think about the things that can happen and know that I have the Lord's strength to get me through the hurdles.
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