++Well, it looks like this surgery is not going to happen this summer anyways. The dr can not get me in for a simple consult (which she does always) until August 3rd! So, we can't even plan surgery until then. Which means either I wait until Christmas break or take time off of work (when the economy is as bad as it is..and teachers are very replaceable) which may not be a very good option...to have this surgery! This just means I'M SCREWED! Nothing like chasing after at risk prek children soon after a lap surgery for a fun story huh? Sorry...I'm venting. I thought I was doing all the right things to get this surgery done that would be right for me and my job. Guess I was trying to hard. So, onto dealing with the flippin pain and my flippin broken lady parts...btw...I hate you lady parts! ***Okay...so now I continue waiting. UGH! I need to pray about this for there is a part of me that is ready to get rid of those lady parts. Do I need them anyways since I'm NOT going to have a baby...thanks to IF? I mean really? With one swoop...gone. That surgery will have to wait though...I've heard it takes a long time to heal from that. What to do...what to do.******* BTW...I forgot to ask about the ins. stuff when the lady at the office informed me of the next possible consult date.***sigh***There is one thing I am well aware of...this situation hurts no one except ME! **I digress..
I just got a call from a lady that works at Dr. S's office (the new dr/surgeon I will be going too to have my next lap. She is also Dr. H trained.). She said they got all of my paperwork but they needed my ins. info. I offered to scan it to her. She kind of mentioned that my ins. could be out of network. Really? My dr here in town mentioned that she was covered under my ins. So, I scanned in my info and emailed it to the lady and now I wait with bated breath to find out what we might be paying. Ugh! I pray we are in-network! She stated that she did not want us to get an unexpected high bill...I answered "Oh yeah, been there, done that." Gosh...I have put this in the Lord's hands but sometimes it's hard to give it to Him! I like to be anxious...NOT! So, I guess I should just be thankful that soon Dr.S will be reviewing my paperwork and Lord willing...we'll be planning my surgery. Lord willing, we can afford it. This situation is all too familiar.
On a quick note...I know Dr S. will probably tell us that we are not too old to "try" again. When I called and spoke to the nurse at Dr H's office, she told me that (which I did not share with my dh). I don't know...I think we are so content now with our lives and happy! I'd be scared to go down that road again. We've always been open to life in our marriage but since it never happened...we just let it go and moved on. Plus..my dh is not very willing to test again. OH well... I guess we'll discuss this possibility if things go well with surgery and my dh is willing to test. No point in me taking meds etc if he has issues too...right?
Other than that...all is well here. I've been cleaning today but mostly relaxing this summer. I'm de-stressing (with the exception of today's news). I really needed this break. I'm enjoying spending more time with my dh and kitties. God is good!
St. Anne...pray for us!
Ugh, that stinks. Dr. H was out of network for us at the time, so I can relate!
ReplyDeletePraying you are in-network! (Does your insurance company have a website you can search for providers? Ours does and it is nice to know that if I search for a provider by name and s/he doesn't come up they are not in network.)
ReplyDeleteHi there! I am relatively new to the blogosphere, but i read your post and I am praying you are in network too. Insurance was always an issue for my husband. I was given Dr.S's name from the Institute and when I looked her up by name she was not in network, but her office said to look her up by the practice name and thankfully they were in our network therefore she was in network. I hope something like that works out for you.
ReplyDeleteI hope and pray that the new doc is in network! I would not want to wish anyone the bills we will be paying for the next couple of years!
ReplyDeletePraying for you!!!
Oh no! Shoot! Maybe there will be a cancellation and you can still get in.
ReplyDeleteI guess a cancellation would be good news huh? Thanks Hebrews!
ReplyDeletePraying for a cancellation too!!!
ReplyDeletePraying for a cancellation! Can you explain your situation and ask to be put on a list for cancellations or no shows....my local dr. Will call if someone is a no show or cancels that day and offer the appt if you live/work within 10 minutes....not a NaPro or even a ob/gyn, but its still a nice service they offer.
ReplyDeleteI asked to be on a cancellation list and this office does not do that...go figure. I was told to call on Mondays to check myself for cancellations and I was told most people don't cancel until the day off the appt which would be hard for me to take since I'm about 3 hours away from this office.
ReplyDeleteHello there! Just checking in...I'm also 41 in northern illinois. and a teacher...just found you on a Jelly Belly's blog roll. I'll have to get you on mine now! I think the Dr. S you are referring to might be the Dr. S in Peoria- I saw her about a month ago. Where are you from? I'm in DeKalb. Can't wait to read more of your blog!
ReplyDeleteI am referring to Dr. S in Peoria...What did you think of her?
ReplyDeleteThat is really obnoxious news. I'm so sorry! You didn't ask for suggestions - but in case you'd be willing to be patient with one, maybe call the clinic once a week to see whether they have cancellations? If they know you're really REALLY serious about getting in earlier, they may be more flexible. (SOMEBODY will cancel. And if you're not work, you can just come in.)
ReplyDeleteAs to the being told you're not too old - I don't think it's a matter of too old, myself. (I'm 30.) I think it's a matter of going through all the "heroic measures" you have the stamina for - and you have to suss out your limits with prudence. I really do think heroic measures (a la the euthanasia/end of life bioethics issues) is the right mode of analysis here, because we are not talking about openness to life. Teenagers are open to life. Mothers of twelve are open to life. We are/were HEROICALLY open to life. We went through more to conceive one baby (which never happened) than they did to conceive all their babies combined. (Raising the babies is further work, of course.) And you - and I - are still open to life. We're not closed to God's plan with us. We've just discerned prudently that no further heroic measures are warranted. You don't perform open-heart surgery on a 95-year-old, either; that would just show that you're attached to blessings regardless of strong indications God has chosen not to offer them, and that you have chosen not to get the most out of the life that naturally remains.
It seems to me that people who are always preaching "hope" to us (since they won't have to incur the costs of chasing that hope, or suffer if it is dashed, again) are preaching it at the expense of gratitude - for what we do have. You have that. It's precious. Don't let it go!
Thank you!
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