A Response Letter

I got a response letter from Dr. H yesterday.  I couldn't wait to open it!  He does recommend a lap surgery with a few other procedures while I'm there.  I found it interesting that he stated that my cycles are not normal.  I thought they were...afterall...I have a cycle every month. I know I have problems but I thought a cycle every month was good which it is but not my cycles...some are longer than others, etc.   I had a dr appt this afternoon and she explained how my cycles are NOT normal. I guess I've never known a normal cycle.  I wonder if I've ever had one.  Hmmm...I didn't always chart.

 I digress....Dr H recommended the ultrasound series.  I'm not going to do that.  We are not going to Omaha so I can get pg.  We are going to so I can have a healthy uterus!   I'm tired of the pain.  Dr H commented how my pain seems to be getting worse over the years.  Really?   Lots worse.  For once, since we've start infertility treatments...I feel like we are going to focus on getting me healthy!  No other dr has looked at the BIG picture.  I'm sure it's too late to focus on pg...which I've accepted....which is kind of sad if you think about it but it's not too late to get healthy.  I'm actually looking forward to this surgery.  Weird, huh?  Okay...I'm not looking forward to starving for 24 hours or doing another enema (gross!) or the pain after surgery.  I'm looking forward to normal cycles.  Looking forward to  healing.

I can not schedule the surgery yet.  Due to the latest cyst drama, I'm going to take a round of progesterone this month.  I'm going to have another ultrasound done on the fifth day of my next cycle to see if the cyst is gone.  In May, I'm going to do another blood profile for Dr H.  Once that profile is done...then we can schedule.  I can't do the blood profile this month since I'll be on the progesterone.  So, Lord willing...I can get rid of the cyst.  I have to remember this is going to happen on the Lord's time..not mine.

So that's about it for now.  We are going to have a busy but fun weekend visiting family for Easter.  My girl kitty is sick with a cold...poor baby.  We can't do anything for her.  Vet recommends we feed her less.  So, her and I will diet together. :)  I'm on spring break now so I'm all about relaxing!  Love it!  Teaching at risk pre-k children is tough.  Whew! 

My mom said something to me that made me think...she said "Your issues with your infertility, endo, etc is your cross."  She's right.  I just hope and pray  having surgery with Dr H makes carrying this cross a little lighter.  God bless you all and have a Happy Easter.