I will start this post with good news...all the work I did with my certification has paid off in another way....I don't have to do attend any certification renewal "classes" to update our adoption license...so, we are good to go. Our license expires in June...hard to believe we've been waiting four years already...we had some close calls but that doesn't really matter...does it? We will wait another four years...we think. Who knows...that's been put in God's hands. Anways...we can do our renewal paperwork. I have to get a physical done..which I need to do for the new job anyway. So, I guess my point in telling you all that is that this is one less "thing" for us to worry about.
I have nine more weeks of teaching these children. Whose counting? Me! I just have to make the best of this experience and move on. This grade is not my niche. Once I find that niche...I'm sure teaching will be what it's suppose to be...fulfilling. I'll be busy this week working on report cards...ugh. Some parents will not be happy. I believe in children earning their grades. I know I made tests easy. I did not grade hard on papers or reports. I'm doing my best with what I have and with my experience. I'm working on not worrying about whether or not parents like me or not. In the big picture of things...does it matter? I won't be teaching this grade next year....and for that I'm grateful. Amen? For now...I feel blessed to have this teaching experience and I will make the best of it.
On to other things...I need to get exercising again! OMG! My clothes are getting tight...ugh. I haven't been doing anything that's healthy. I have to regroup and not let my job consume me so much that I'm forgetting myself and those who love me, right? Gaining this weight is not helping me feel good about myself right now. Ugh! It was nice out yesterday so I went for a walk. It felt great! I loved listening to the birds sing and I love feeling the warmer weather. I need to do that more.
Oh...I took yesterday off from school work! I didn't go on the computer, no grading and no planning. When I brought up teaching to my dh he told me to forget about it. It really was my first day off since I have started teaching in Jan. Oh...it felt good!
Tomorrow I attend a teacher's retreat on the Shroud of Terrin? Anyone hear about it? I'll post later about that...when I'm done with report cards. It's going to be a shorter day and I won't have to teach kids so it's a day to focus on our faith and the Lord. Should be good.
Well...back to work...
One last thought...I guess with the adoption paperwork back on the forefront...I've been thinking about IF lately and how much it still hurts. I wonder if it will ever go away? I don't cry or sob over it anymore but there are times my heart still aches...I still know that I'd be overjoyed if a baby came into our lives. I guess that door is still open. Not ready to shut it yet...just working on leaving it in God's hands and continue on with doing His work and His will.
I'm praying for you! You have such faith and trust in the Lord - He will answer you! With all that you have going on, it is easy to forget to take care of yourself. You have to do it! Spring will help, I'm sure :) I'm feeling the "pinch" too, so taking the dog for more frequent walks will help both of us!
ReplyDeleteI am glad you enjoyed your day off! You earned it. :) I love how, even in uncertainty, you are always open to whatever God has planned.
ReplyDeleteYou have such an amazing spirit! God is surely pleased!
ReplyDeleteI know sometimes I am terrible about remembering what people have said (I really am paying attention), but I don't understand what you mean about waiting another four years. Do you mean that you currently plan not to pursue any opportunities to adopt in the next few years, or that you're not hopeful that you'll be matched in the next four years?
ReplyDeleteHope that you find your teaching niche soon! Interesting about there being a teachers' retreat on the Shroud (actually, I didn't know there were teachers' retreats, period!). What a great idea.