Actually this is my biggest struggle right now....I seem to be eating, drinking and living for my new teaching job...which I guess (and I've heard) as a new teacher this is normal. I just don't want to burn out and then say "I'm done.". Did you know that more than 50% of new teachers quit after the first 5 years? I really want to enjoy my job....the career and path the Good Lord has mapped out for me. I do enjoy working with the children but when they leave...the real work begins...grading..planning...getting the work together for the children. Yesterday...we had a snow day (and today as well) and I spent the day catching up on grading and I read 28 book reports! By the last one...I really didn't care what the kid wrote (haha). I spend countless hours at the school...and when I come home I make or eat some kind of dinner...watch the news and I do a few more hours of work until I have to get ready for bed. I do get to bed at a reasonable hour...this girl needs her sleep time.
With all of that...my dh and I have discussed how disconnected we've been. So, we are going to spend at least 1/2 hour an evening talking (we are going to try). He's the most important aspect of my life. I wouldn't be a good teacher without him....so we need to make time for each other. He'll be done teaching his night classes this week ( and will be doing all on-line teaching) so he'll be home more.
I guess it's just overwhelming. When I went to the chiro recently he told me to find relaxation time...my muscles were in knots...the adjustments hurt because I was so tight. He told me to find time to do my back exercises and time for me...every night. I've been getting a lot of headaches lately. It's due to stress. My gp warned me that I would get more headaches with more stress. ****sigh**** So...how do I learn to relax...let it go...and live my life too?
Oh..I won't mention that I have a high maintenance parent who wants me to give her child extra special attention...a child who doesn't want that. She gave me her "story" and how he's delayed..which he's not...he goofs around a lot and is lazy. He doesn't apply himself...is that really my problem? Ugh!
Okay..enough of that...not much else going on...I did do the prog cream last cycle and I had a heavier cycle...but I also felt horrible...so I'm giving that regimen another cycle to see if that was a fluke or if it's going to be a regular occurrence. I also noticed that I haven't had as much cm this cycle...ugh.
So, it's been quiet and uneventful which is good considering my job has been keeping super busy. I have been reading your blogs when I can...mostly on weekends. It's a nice escape.
God bless and to those of you that were effected by the massive snow storm and cold...stay warm and safe!
The first year is definitely a killer. Hang in there...I'm currently in year 7 and never thought I'd make it.
ReplyDeleteAnd you will have PLENTY of fun parent stories. We just had parent-teacher conferences and a dad asked that I give his (undeserving) son an award in order to motivate his mom to get the son to school on time. Um, what!? I also had a parent come drunk, so good times all around.
I'll keep you in my prayers. Take care. And try as you might to give time to yourself. I cried a lot my first year until I learned to balance work and personal life.
Wow! You have a lot on your plate. Finding balance is key...I hope you find it real soon! That, and a nice vacation spot over the summer!
ReplyDeleteOn a seperate note; when the snow disappears, we need to get together for lunch (not to add more to your busy schedule, but that would be relaxing right?!).
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ReplyDeleteI will pray that God leads you to that perfect balance!
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