I've been reflecting on this a lot lately. I keep asking myself (and praying) why I keep on this rollarcoaster of TTC'ing? One reason..and my dh said it so eloquently..."We try because you still have a STRONG desire for a baby." He told me a few days ago that is why he's now willing to get tested, etc. He realized my desire when "T" got pg..with identical twin boys! I try to hide my desire but he knows. He can read my body language and he can read between the lines when I say "I don't care." I guess after 11 years of marriage..it's hard to hide things and I do wear my emotions on my sleeve. He also noticed that when I buy toys for my future clients...I have a tendency to buy girl toys...which I'm not so sure about...I have quite a bit of dual gender things. Maybe I'm overlooking things and I could be very unconsciously doing that. Oh well...So we try because he knows what is in my heart. After all of these years...the desire is still in my heart. Lord willing...HE will fulfill my desire. If it be HIS will.
My dh did also say "In the end, if nothing happens...we'll still have our two cats!" hahaha..which we love like our children so that isn't too bad. Jojo is soooo spoiled. He knows he is loved...and demands attention! He has a white belly and when he lays on his back...who can resist rubbing it? :)
Onto some good news...my dh's dr appt got moved up to Sept 9th (God is working here again ladies) and I just got my credential to start working with babies and their families!!! I am a Dev.elopme.ntal Therapist for the state EI program!!! Woohoo!! It was hard work but so worth it!!! God is good. Amen?
Amen!
ReplyDeleteI think that it's great that your dh is willing to try for a little longer. Because while I hope and pray that you will have a child, if you don't, you will know that you both did everything you could, and that means a lot. Praying for you as you continue to ride the rollarcoaster for now!
It is great that he's willing to keep trying for in reality..if it were up to my dh..we'd be done. Thank you for the kind words.
DeletePraying for you! That is great about your job!
ReplyDeleteSo excited for you and your new job! I did the same type of work in my state and it was by far the most amazing experience and opportunity to learn so many ways to connect with these little ones. I was in the middle of the dessert of IF during that time and there were days I was sad but the joy of holding and teaching those precious little ones were my consolation! Praying for you and the desires of your heart.
ReplyDeleteYou and your husband are wonderful examples of caring for your spouse in an unconditional way!
Thank you...and yes, it's going to be rewarding to help the little ones and their families. God is good and working for Him is the best job ever!
DeleteThe hope our husbands have is just astounding. God bless both of them!
ReplyDeleteWhat a good man. And, excited for your new career adventures!
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