It's hard to believe that we are now into a new year. Happy New Year!!! When I reflect about 2012...I can say it wasn't a bad year at all. I kept working, I and my family stayed rather healthy and the year was pretty uneventful which is a good thing. I hope for the same in 2013!
I guess the one big thing that happened in 2012 is that I had surgery by a napro trained dr! I do remember my dh and I talking about this very topic last Feb. When I went and had a chart review with my FCP...I brought it up and she helped me to get the paperwork together and sent to Dr. H. I had a feeling endo was back. :( By March, we had a response from him and started making plans. Unfortunately, Dr. H had his own health issues which changed it all and we made the quick decision in June to see if Dr. S. could help us and everything seemed to work out. In August, I had my surgery. I've so thankful that I was able to get the help I needed and even though I'm still healing...(I guess)...I know in the long run, it's all very worth it. For the year 2013...I'm going to make the efforts to eat better and exercise. Dang...I've been bad. You would think I would have made the valiant efforts after surgery but my job stresses took over...and my dreams for a healthier self flew out the window.
I'm also going to work on mediating more, keep up with the yoga and work on stressing less. Life is too short and I don't want to live my life this way. IF that means finding another line of work, so be it. I need to take care of ME sometimes. I do love working with children...I do! I just struggle with the little ones that are so out of reach...their lives are nothing I can imagine and they bring their anger to me....and I have so many children in my class that are soooooo needy...I'm unable to reach them all. That is a tough thing to chew on as a teacher. It is what it is and if I'm not taking care of myself...I'm no good to those children either. One thing I realized over this break is that God put me at this school/job for a reason. Now, He's going to have to help me work with these kids....and sometimes doing the Lord's work...is hard. Very Hard! I have been looking into doing another line of work that would be still working with children but I wouldn't be a teacher. I'm praying about it and I wouldn't get the breaks (which I love)...but I wouldn't be working 60 hour weeks either. hmmm...I have to discern which is best for me. My dh feels like this other line of work might be the best for me...less stress. I'd be technically running my own small business and working my own hours...which would be totally new for me...but hey...sometimes we have to take a leap of faith..right?
Okay...maybe my reflection isn't that little but it's what 2012 has brought to me. I hope 2013 brings forth many blessings for you all. I do keep my blog girls in my prayers...especially those of us still waiting...whether it's for children or just for the peace of Christ to settle in our hearts to accept the life HE has set forth for us. Accepting His will is hard. I know.
Oh man girl- I know what you mean with teaching. It's taken me about 5 years to cut down on the time I spend there. It's taken lots of work during the summer and with a great team mate I work with. But, with common core standards coming up and more technology demands and being evaluated on test scores in 2016, I'm thinking to make a change too. It's been hard to discern. It sounds like you are pretty sure there needs to be a change. By the way, even though you feel like you aren't making a difference in your students' lives, I just know in the bottom of my heart you are making a difference. You never know exactly how you are reaching them, maybe it's a book you read, a smile you gave or a hug. Or, it might be being a ray of hope to the parents. Or one parent. There is so much research that says preschool is the key to academic success. Unfortunately, you don't get to see the fruits of your labor. They are there though. Praying God presents you with an opportunity to make a change or gives you the strength to continue your selfless work. God Bless You!!!
ReplyDeleteThank you for the insightful words...I hope I do touch these kids lives! However, and my dh agrees, the demands that are being put on teachers is just getting out of hand..especially with the clientell I have to work with. How can I improve academics if a student is in school 4 out of 15 days? Geesh.
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