Adoption Home Study is......

Complete!  Woohoo!!!  Well, actually, I'd be lying to say we are too excited.  Our sw did the final part of the home study process this morning at our house.  Our cats seemed to like her even Missy who usually does not come to strangers.  Anyways...she enlightened us with some info that kind of burst our bubble.  Adoption is not as easy as bir.thmother signs her release, you take baby home and life is all gaa gaa and goo goo.  Nope.  We got a piece of "reality check pie" this morning about what could happen...what we need to prepare for...stuff no one really on these blogs talks about...which I get...because it may never happen but if it does...no one wants to dwell on it.  I get it.  I'm probably not going to want to talk about it either.  Now that we are licensed and our home study  is done...the marketing agency we paid big bucks too can GET TO WORK!  They have sent out our profile to 4 b/m's as of now but that is mainly to women who are just starting the process...thinking about it...etc...etc.  Now they can put us on on their website, blog and f.b pages or whatever avenues they have to market us.  They will put us "out there".  My dh is still working on contacting adoptio.n law.yers and I have a great recommendation for a local Ped Dr. 

I must admit when the sw left I was going to do the "happy dance" until my dh started to talk.  He did "poo poo" on my parade.  He dwelt on what could happen, the fact that we don't know how any of this is going to turn out, no baby shower (um, no one knows in our family that we are adopting again...just some good friends we know from the Knights and church), no nothing.  The negativity was just oozing from him.  He is struggling.   We may do an "interstate" adoption..which means more of a lot of things...and more time from work.  All of the uncertainty and possibilities involved just made my dh down...please spare a little prayer for him.  After that conversation he took me to the mall and I did a little shopping.  Nothing like a little shopping to brighten my day! Oh, he is going to an adoration hour at our church tonight...I know prayer will cheer my man up!

 Plus, our adoption is in God's hands...He will give us strength to handle what comes our way.  Nothing about our journey to parenthood has been easy...and this won't be either (I'm guessing).  I just have to believe that it will work out when we meet our forever baby..If it God's will.

Last night my dh took me on a fun date night..we went to see a musical called the "Mill.ion Dolla.r Quartet." Fun!  We haven't been to a musical in about eleven years.  Long overdue. 

Sadly, my girlfriend's husband unexpectedly passed away a few days ago.  He had a low heart rate about a month ago and he passed out.  I guess the dr's were monitoring him but not overly concerned.  Well, Sunday morning he passed from this "non-alarming" heart condition.  My girlfriend has four young daughters (2 in high school, 2 in grade school).  They are old enough to understand what is going on.  She asked for everyone to pray for them.  I had such a heavy heart yesterday.  I just can not imagine her pain and this young woman trying to help her daughters.  Lord, please hold them all in your loving arms and wrap them in love.

Not going to end this post sadly, we found out today that one of my dh's nephews is going to propose in a few weeks to his high school sweetheart.  Awe.  They are a sweet couple.  I ,however, felt old. huh?

On that note...I will keep you posted if there is any more adoption news.  Really, I have put complete trust in our Lord.  If it's meant to be...it will be.  I guess I'm hoping all of the years of IF, treatments and heartache have given me the strength that I will need to a successful adoption.  I hope my dh has the strength too.

St Anne..pray for us!
St. Collette, pray for us!
St. Catherine of Sweden, pray for us!