Getting there..adoption update**Updated**

Today we had our second visit with our adoption s.w...in her office..which is about one hour and a half away from us and yes...we made it there and back through a winter snow storm (we are so over winter so it was a rather long drive).  I prayed all the way there and back.  The visit went well...she hopes to have our home study done in March.  That is pretty soon...right now she's waiting to hear results from our fingerprinting update.  Our next visit will be at our home (this will be the last one).  She hopes to do that soon as well.  The visit today was very uneventful...which was good (I guess).  We talked about our parents and our childhoods.  She did recommend we start looking for an adopt.ion law.yer.  She thinks we just need to retain one and be prepared.

On our way home I received an email from the agency that is marketing us to potential b/m's stating they sent our paper profile to one bi.rthmother in the last few weeks.  I guess it only takes one...but no hopes up here.  We just started this whole process so one is actually good.  Once our home.study is complete...we will be on the agency web.site and blog, etc.  That will get us more "views", and action. 

While talking about our visit...my dh started to talk about what will happen IF we don't end up adopting   Honestly, I won't let myself think about that.  He is planning.  I'm not.  We just started this whole process and I just can't think about it not happening.  We need to remain as positive as possible right now...we need to leave our future to the Lord.   As I told the s.w. today...we are giving the Lord one more opportunity to build our family (or He's giving us another opportunity)...if it doesn't happen...at some point we have to move on...let go...be done.  We will have to accept being a family of two.  That is okay.

Please keep one of my brothers in your prayers.  Today and the next few days he is hashing out the final details of his divorce.  Lord willing, it will be done.  My brother has been through so much...and has paid out so much money in court.   I don't know...just praying for justice for my brother.  Thank God he has custody of his two boys. 

On Friday I have another mamo.gram exam scheduled.  Since the dr's found cysts and I have dense brea.st tissue...I have to get checked twice a year..instead of once.  It is a little nerve racking...I know what they are looking for.  I just pray they don't find it.  My dh is coming with me...for support.  Lord willing, all will be okay.

Update**Had my mamo this am and everything looked the same, no changes so all is good and I don't have to get another mamo until next year (I was needing one every 6 months)!  Woohoo!!!  Praises be to the Lord!  As I waited for the results I prayed I wouldn't have the big C and I also prayed for those who do and are suffering.  I also offered up my anxiety for those suffering with C as well.**

Also**My brother will have to endure a couple more weeks of waiting to hear the judges final decision about his divorce. But he's done presenting his case...and now it's out of his hands.**  God's will be done.


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